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CHAPTER III. Continues the same matter. Describes another kind of union which,
with the help of God, the soul can attain, and the important part
played in it by the love of our neighbour. This chapter is of great
profit.
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LET us now return to our little dove, and see something of what God
gives her in this state. It must always be understood that she will
try to advance in the service of Our Lord and in self-knowledge. If
she does no more than receive this favour, and, as though she enjoyed
complete security, begins to lead a careless life and stray from the
road to Heaven -- that is, from the Commandments -- there will
happen to her what happens to the creature that comes out of the
silkworm, which leaves seed for the production of more silkworms and
then dies for ever. I say it leaves seed because for my own part I
believe it is God's will that so great a favour should not be given in
vain, and that if the soul that receives it does not profit by it
others will do so. For, as the soul possesses these aforementioned
desires and virtues, it will always profit other souls so long as it
leads a good life, and from its own heat new heat will be transmitted
to them. Even after losing this, it may still desire others to
profit, and take pleasure in describing the favours given by God to
those who love and serve Him.
I knew a person to whom this happened, and who, though
having herself gone far astray was glad that others should profit by the
favours God had shown her, she would describe the way of prayer to
those who did not understand it, and she brought them very, very great
profit. Later, the Lord gave her new light. It is true
that she had not yet experienced the effects which have been mentioned.
But how many are called by the Lord to apostleship, as Judas was,
and enjoy communion with Him, or are called to be made kings, as
Saul was, and afterwards, through their own fault, are lost! From
this, sisters, we may deduce that, if we are to acquire increasing
merit, and not, like Saul and Judas, to be lost, our only possible
safety consists in obedience and in never swerving from the law of
God; I am referring to those to whom He grants these favours, and
in fact to all.
Despite all I have said, this Mansion seems to me a little obscure.
There is a great deal to be gained by entering it, and those from whom
the Lord withholds such supernatural gifts will do well to feel that
they are not without hope; for true union can quite well be achieved,
with the favour of Our Lord, if we endeavour to attain it by not
following our own will but submitting it to whatever is the will of
God. Oh, how many of us there are who say we do this and think we
want nothing else, and would die for this truth, as I believe I have
said! For I tell you, and I shall often repeat this, that when you
have obtained this favour from the Lord, you need not strive for that
other delectable union which has been described, for the most valuable
thing about it is that it proceeds from this union which I am now
describing; and we cannot attain to the heights I have spoken of if we
are not sure that we have the union in which we resign our wills to the
will of God.
Oh, how much to be desired is this union! Happy the soul that has
attained to it, for it will live peacefully both in this life and in
the next as well. Nothing that happens on earth will afflict it unless
it finds itself in peril of losing God, or sees that He is offended
-- neither sickness nor poverty nor death, except when someone dies
who was needed by the Church of God. For this soul sees clearly that
He knows what He does better than it knows itself what it desires.
You must observe that there are many kinds of grief. Some of them
come upon us suddenly, in natural ways, just as pleasures do; they
may even arise from charity, which makes us pity our neighbours, as
Our Lord did when He raised Lazarus; and these do not
prevent union with the will of God, nor do they cause a restless,
unquiet passion which disturbs the soul and lasts for a long time.
They are griefs which pass quickly; for, as I said of joys in
prayer, they seem not to penetrate to the depth of the soul but only
reach these senses and faculties. They characterize all the Mansions
so far described but do not enter that which will be dealt with last of
all, from which the suspension of the faculties already referred to is
inseparable. The Lord can enrich souls in many ways and bring them to
these Mansions by many other paths than the short cut which has been
described.
But note very carefully, daughters, that the silkworm has of
necessity to die; and it is this which will cost you most; for death
comes more easily when one can see oneself living a new life,
whereas our duty now is to continue living this present life, and yet
to die of our own free will. I confess to you that we shall
find this much harder, but it is of the greatest value and the reward
will be greater too if you gain the victory. But you must not doubt
the possibility of this true union with the will of God. This is the
union which I have desired all my life; it is for this that I
continually beseech Our Lord; it is this which is the most genuine
and the safest.
But alas that so few of us are destined to attain it! A person who
takes care not to offend the Lord and has entered the religious life
may think he has done everything. But oh, there are always a few
little worms which do not reveal themselves until, like the worm which
gnawed through Jonas's ivy, they have gnawed through our
virtues. Such are self-love, self-esteem, censoriousness (even if
only in small things) concerning our neighbours, lack of charity
towards them, and failure to love them as we love ourselves. For,
although late in the day we may fulfil our obligations and so commit no
sin, we are far from attaining a point necessary to complete union with
the will of God.
What do you suppose His will is, daughters? That we should be
altogether perfect, and be one with Him and with the
Father, as in His Majesty's prayer. Consider what a
long way we are from attaining this. I assure you that it causes me
real distress to write in this way because I know how far I am from it
myself, and entirely through my own fault. For we do not require
great favours from the Lord before we can achieve this; He has given
us all we need in giving us His Son to show us the way. Do not think
that if, for example, my father or my brother dies, I ought to be in
such close conformity with the will of God that I shall not grieve at
his loss, or that, if I have trials or illnesses, I must enjoy
bearing them. It is good if we can do this and some times it is a
matter of common sense: being unable to help ourselves, we make a
virtue of necessity. How often philosophers used to act thus in
matters of this kind, or in similar matters -- and they were very
wise men! But here the Lord asks only two things of us: love for
His Majesty and love for our neighbour. It is for these two virtues
that we must strive, and if we attain them perfectly we are doing His
will and so shall be united with Him. But, as I have said, how far
we are from doing these two things in the way we ought for a God Who
is so great! May His Majesty be pleased to give us grace so that we
may deserve to reach this state, as it is in our power to do if we
wish.
The surest sign that we are keeping these two commandments is, I
think, that we should really be loving our neighbour; for we cannot be
sure if we are loving God, although we may have good reasons for
believing that we are, but we can know quite well if we are loving our
neighbour. And be certain that, the farther advanced you find you are
in this, the greater the love you will have for God; for so dearly
does His Majesty love us that He will reward our love for our
neighbour by increasing the love which we bear to Himself, and that in
a thousand ways: this I cannot doubt.
It is most important that we should proceed in this matter very
carefully, for, if we have attained great perfection here, we have
done everything. Our nature being so evil, I do not believe we could
ever attain perfect love for our neighbour unless it had its roots in
the love of God. Since this is so important, sisters, let us strive
to get to know ourselves better and better, even in the very smallest
matters, and take no notice of all the fine plans which come crowding
into our minds when we are at prayer, and which we think we will put
into practice and carry out for the good of our neighbours in the hope
of saving just one soul. If our later actions are not in harmony with
those plans, we can have no reason for believing that we should ever
have put them into practice. I say the same of humility and of all the
virtues; the wiles of the devil are terrible, he will run a thousand
times round hell if by so doing he can make us believe that we have a
single virtue which we have not. And he is right, for such ideas are
very harmful, and such imaginary virtues, when they come from this
source, are never unaccompanied by vainglory; just as those which God
gives are free both from this and from pride.
I like the way in which some souls, when they are at prayer, think
that, for God's sake, they would be glad if they could be humbled
and put to open shame -- and then try to conceal quite a slight
failure. Oh, and if they should be accused of anything that they have
not done ---- ! God save us from having to listen to them then!
Let anyone who cannot bear trials like that be very careful to pay no
heed to the resolutions he may have made when he was alone. For they
could not in fact have been resolutions made by the will (a genuine act
of the will is quite another matter); they must have been due to some
freak of the imagination. The devil makes good use of the imagination
in practising his surprises and deceptions, and there are many such
which he can practise on women, or on unlettered persons, because we
do not understand the difference between the faculties and the
imagination, and thousands of other things belonging to the interior
life. Oh, sisters, how clearly it can be seen what love of your
neighbour really means to some of you, and what an imperfect stage it
has reached in others! If you understood the importance of this virtue
to us all you would strive after nothing but gaining it.
When I see people very diligently trying to discover what kind of
prayer they are experiencing and so completely wrapt up in
their prayers that they seem afraid to stir, or to indulge in a
moment's thought, lest they should lose the slightest degree of the
tenderness and devotion which they have been feeling, I realize how
little they understand of the road to the attainment of union. They
think that the whole thing consists in this. But no, sisters, no;
what the Lord desires is works. If you see a sick woman to whom you
can give some help, never be affected by the fear that your devotion
will suffer, but take pity on her: if she is in pain, you should feel
pain too; if necessary, fast so that she may have your food, not so
much for her sake as because you know it to be your Lord's will.
That is true union with His will. Again, if you hear someone being
highly praised, be much more pleased than if they were praising you;
this is really easy if you have humility, for in that case you will be
sorry to hear yourself praised. To be glad when your sisters' virtues
are praised is a great thing, and, when we see a fault in someone, we
should be as sorry about it as if it were our own and try to conceal it
from others.
I have said a great deal about this elsewhere, sisters,
because I know that, if we were to fail here, we should be lost.
May the Lord grant us never to fail, and, if that is to be so, I
tell you that you must not cease to beg His Majesty for the union
which I have described. It may be that you have experienced devotion
and consolations, so that you think you have reached this stage, and
even enjoyed some brief period of suspension in the Prayer of Quiet,
which some people always take to mean that everything is accomplished.
But, believe me, if you find you are lacking in this virtue, you
have not yet attained union. So ask Our Lord to grant you this
perfect love for your neighbour, and allow His Majesty to work,
and, if you use your best endeavours and strive after this in every way
that you can, He will give you more even than you can desire. You
must do violence to your own will, so that your sister's will is done
in everything, even though this may cause you to forgo your own rights
and forget your own good in your concern for theirs, and however much
your physical powers may rebel. If the opportunity presents itself,
too, try to shoulder some trial in order to relieve your neighbour of
it. Do not suppose that it will cost you nothing or that you will find
it all done for you. Think what the love which our Spouse had for us
cost Him, when, in order to redeem us from death, He died such a
grievous death as the death of the Cross.
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